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EARLY ON, there was no word for “groundhog.” Neither were there groundhogs, or grandmothers, or event coordinators. There were events but they were uncoordinated like the Tunguska Event. There was nothing, but no word for it. In some ways it must have been nice, all that wordlessness, because sometimes now you meet somebody and all you can think is, Please stop talking. Our planet has become so much wordier than the other planets, although there are respites if you hang out with eagles or angels. Eagles never explain anything, and angels are no more voluble than they are visible: visibility is not their shtick.

But once in a while you meet a visible voluble being and you think, Please do not stop talking. This would never happen on Neptune. Also, with all the flowers and words for flowers, we can indulge in wildflower gossip, about how the golden alexanders are bolting, how the tansies are being insubordinate again, how the mad apples are creeping up on the obedient plant, how the purple archangel was boogying in the wind last night. (The purple archangel is anomalously visible.)

Wildflower scandals are talkable things. There are talkable things and untalkable things, just like there are beable things and unbeable things, though not everybody knows this. First-graders want to be beable things—astronauts and firefighters—when they grow up, but children in nursery school want to be owls and cars and sandwiches. They are expatriates from somewhere far-out, and they are still trying to talk about untalkable things, like: How fast is time? What is time plus time? How many jiffies in an hour, how many soons in an afternoon? How many fasts does it take to make a slow?

Once, I found a book of piano music by Brahms and played an intermezzo slowly, very slowly, lentissimo. I thought it sublime at that tempo, but later I heard someone on the radio playing the same intermezzo fast, fastissimo—she could have played it four times while I played it once. In this case it took four fasts to make a slow. When my father was nine, his parents had him sing “The Holy City” for church, accompanied by his four-year-old brother, Danny, pumping the pedals of a player piano. At first the song rolled right along, but then, as Danny got tired, he pumped the pedals more slowly, and Benjie had to sing more and more slowly until, right in the middle of a word—“Jerrr-ru-u-u-sa-le-e-mmm, Jerrr-ru-u-u-u-u-u”—the song stopped, and the congregation roared with laughter. Then Danny got a burst of energy again, and the song resumed and slowed down again and stopped again.


How fast is time? What is time plus time?
How many jiffies in an hour, how many soons in an afternoon?
How many fasts does it take to make a slow?


Time can seem just that erratic, with prestissimo, lentissimo, and us always having to scramble to keep up or slow down to a mortifying pace. But slow or fast or spasmodic, a song always ends. An hour is like a song in that it ends. For a while there were a lot of Triassic types going around. Montesquieu made a name for himself, as did mosquitoes. The tribes of the Warm Springs moved from their winter village to their summer village and back. Passively the icicles grew, passively they melted. Some people lost their good reputations, some people lost their canoes. Some cowboys lost their cows and then they were just boys. Nations formed, nations raged; meanwhile the giraffes were so well behaved we forgot all about them. Some people, you could tell, spent their evenings reading pamphlets entitled Why Won’t They Listen? Punctiliously the clocks kept ticking. There was a rolling hello as people appeared, and a rolling goodbye as they disappeared. The generality was perpetually replenished, but you don’t really say hello or goodbye to a generality.

For all the things that did happen, many more things did not happen. Many people did not appear; many people appeared but did not flower; Meister Eckhart flowered but did not drive a Maserati. The event that flattened all those trees in Tunguska did not flatten the folks in Delhi or Quito or Winsted, Connecticut. Even after Maseratis appeared, they did not impinge on some people’s consciousness, just as nuthatches do not impinge on some people’s consciousness. Some people never got around to reading Moby-Dick, so they never realized that everything in their lives had been preparing them to read Moby-Dick.

And all this happening and non-happening has brought us to the present hour, when you have cats running around younger than churches and trees standing there older than churches. And we are still innocent of time. After all this time, to be innocent of time. Though maybe there are some things you can’t realize until your name is Grandmother, like the tempo of time, like those grandparent types who go around insisting, “It goes so fast.” Maybe all those slows add up to a fast. Maybe it’s like we’re sitting in the garden with our little cups of water and some excited person keeps rushing around telling us, “Water is blue, water is blue, can’t you see, water is blue.” But we peer into our cups and the water doesn’t look blue—it looks clear, like a good little diluter. We add it to our whiskey, we add it to our milk, and they get clearer, weaker, waterier. There is just one thing that water does not dilute, and that is water. Water plus water plus water is blue. Sinking down, you see how very blue.


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Excerpted from The Everybody Ensemble by Amy Leach. Published by Farrar, Straus and Giroux, November 16, 2021. Copyright © 2021 by Amy Leach. All rights reserved.


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Amy Leach grew up in Texas and earned her MFA from the Nonfiction Writing Program at the University of Iowa. Her work has appeared in The Best American Essays, The Best American Science and Nature Writing, and numerous other publications, including Granta, A Public Space, Orion, Tin House, and the Los Angeles Review of Books. She is a recipient of a Whiting Writers’ Award, a Rona Jaffe Foundation Award, and a Pushcart Prize. Her first book was Things That Are. She lives in Montana.


  1. I enjoyed this immensely. As I sit here, my hamster is tearing around the spare room, sometimes running furiously on his wheel (he has one outside of his enclosure as well). Eventually he will fall sleep on that wheel, laying down as it rocks back and forth. His life is short and high speed compared to mine, but is it? Are rodents the shooting stars of my animal friend world? In the wild they can run up to five miles a night on dunes. I have no doubt he puts that into his wheels.
    I doubt that Mr Popcorn cares about such musings. I do know I like to slow down and watch him speed around. I don’t know if the cats or dog care much about time either but they sure know when it is time to eat.

  2. My great desire is nothing more than a slow walk in a thin place. }:- a.m.

  3. In the perpetual waiting for electricity to come back, in the waiting for my feet to warm up, for the feeling of loss to warn out, for my mind to light up and release a breeze into my heart to remind me of everything beautiful in the waiting, I read this and I cannot help but keep asking: how many slows in the fast? I surrender to these lines and cease to wait.

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